Almost A Month

Holy cow! I cannot believe it has almost been a full month since I posted. I guess that says a lot for how my February went. February was a really interesting month for me. I won't go into details, as much of it is terribly personal, but February was a growing month for me. I made some really big changes that I have been avoiding for years. Literally. My husband and I made some great changes in our relationship and made some big decisions about our future. It was a hard month. It was an amazing month. I ate a lot. I gained 4 pounds. I barely ran. I am a little disappointed in how my once toner body is now a smidge flabbier and saggy-ier. I wish I had gone through the month still counting calories and running like mad. Well, I didn't. I still have so much to learn in this weightloss journey and I am nowhere near where I thought I was in terms of health/fitness. It's OK. I could beat myself up about it or I can take it all in stride and be proud of how far I have come and look forward to the future.

Last week I had to take steroids for this ear problem I have. They made me feel weird! I hated being on them. But, I did notice I was able to make myself run faster than normal. And my legs were burning sore on Sunday and Monday (I took both days off). This morning I was able to run 5 miles in 55 minutes (and some seconds, but I am too lazy to get up and see how many seconds). It felt great. I am seeing minor improvement in my speed, even though I haven't done a speed workout in months. I'm trying to figure this all out. I want to have fun running. I want to be faster. I want to get stronger. I am not following a training program at all. I am not doing speedwork. I kind of feel like I am just off-track a bit. But I want to be happy about that. I do not want to obsess about my running, since I actually have a very busy, demanding life that needs me.

This post is all over the place. Sorry. Let me just say that I am going to try harder with my blogging. I am going to try to eat better. I will do better about regular exercise (especially since I have a half marathon in April!).